Unsaid

Unsaid

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

Should I bite my tongue?

I’m sick, but it’s not just the blood I’m swallowing

Things said wrong

Things said right

I can’t tell the difference

I know what I should say, but I’ll bite my tongue

I’ll stay sick, but not just from the blood I’ve swallowed

It’s too late

It’s too early

Talking in circles and beating dead horses

To much talk about the past

Not enough talk about the future

My tongue is sore

I’ve swallowed too much blood

I’ve been sick for too long

Verbal vomit is my style

Emotional vomit is not

I’m not a Genie, but you might be so I’ll kill this bottle of Rum

Numb my tongue

Wash down the blood

Say the unsaid

You Don't Write

You Don’t Write

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

You don’t write when we are happy

I can’t believe you said that

I write about the good times,

But only to remember them

I write about the bad times,

But only to say what I couldn’t

You’ve never tried to help me write in the good times

You just complain that I am not giving you attention

You’ve never helped me write in the bad times

You just complain that I make you look like an asshole

You don’t write about me

You’ve never shared with me what’s in those notebooks

I don’t write when we are happy

Give me a reason

I’ll write about us

I could write about how much I desire you next to me

There could be something written about how you make me feel

The good times, how they once outnumbered the bad

The bad times, that now are more common than the good

It’s a low spot, so I’ll write about that

I might write about you not caring

Maybe you should write

Write me something that tells me what to write

You don’t write either

Sweat Down Your Spine

Sweat Down Your Spine

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

April Fools Day was no joke

Three times lucky

Riding a high that has lasted half a decade

Excited isn’t the best word, but it’s the first that comes to mind

Expectations thru the roof based on changes in mood

There’s not a rainy day in this parade

Life is good

The 12^th Ring of Hell starts flexing its muscle

Time to submerge with beer in hand

Light the grill and do some flips

I feel like a creep as I watch sweat roll down your spine

The Pulpit applies some pressure

April showers bring May flowers,

But those flowers are starting to wilt

The 12^th Ring of Hell is in control

The heat becomes oppressive

Water up to my chin

The sweet smell of a grill

That dirty, creepy feeling as I follow the sweat down your spine

A Yankee comes to visit

The heat is becoming too much

Witness Relocation is not received well

A small distance feels like forever,

But we still do flips in the sun showers

Intimate encounters are getting harder to find though

Tempers are mirroring the temperatures

Fireworks can’t distract from the stabbing in the back

Assumptions start becoming reality

Too many bucket mouths create a flood

A bad decision made worse than it is

Wishing I could follow the sweat down your spine

Feeling love and being in love are two different things

The attention of others is more important than the attention of one

Running back to where it started seems like the right idea,

If only so it’s easier to play with the monkey

Loving to fight and fighting for something are two different things,

But we already knew that

I just want to follow the sweat down your spine

You Know

You Know

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

You know what I thought when we died?

I couldn’t understand how you could talk to people again

I couldn’t understand how you could laugh again

I couldn’t understand how you could play again

It’s a lie that life just goes on

Slow down, slow down, slow down, just slow down

Take it easy, take it easy

How am I supposed to take it easy?

I can’t just go on with my life like you

I am paralyzed

I’m an amputee

Do you see that?

Do you see who you are to me?

I just want to disappear

I feel like I’m visiting death’s waiting room

The Earth turned to bring us closer to each other

It turned on itself to bring us closer

It turned and brought us closer together

That was just a dream

Nothing I can do, will bring us back

How many lives do we live?

How many times do we die?

I’ve used them all for you

At the exact moment of death we all lose 21 grams, so they say

Everyone does

How much life fits into 21 grams?

How much life is lost?

21 grams is the weight of five stacks of nickels

A hummingbird weighs 21 grams

We lived a fraud long enough

Life goes on, with or without you

Life goes on, with or without God

God knows when a single hair moves on your head

Who will be next?

Who will be my replacement?

Lucky #13

You love to fight, but will you fight for love?

We’ve been a fraud for a long time and I can’t keep going on like this

Trying to put a Band-Aid on something that’s been bled dry

Condemning myself to a terrible death

My heart won’t work anymore

I’m dying of asphyxiation

It’s awful

You can’t imagine it

You could help me die better,

But you’re not going to do that

Easier to find a new love than to keep an old one

I know who you are

I love you

I love everything about you that it hurts

I fell in love with you

Did I have a choice?

Was there was a moment when I did have a choice?

Was there a moment when I could have resisted you?

I love you like a dog loves its owner

Can you love me for doing so?

Will you ever forgive me?

I forgave you

Without forgiveness we are just savages

I’m drowning

I’m disgusting

Can anyone ever love you as much as I do?

Why isn’t love enough?

You’re phenomenal

You’re so clever

You owe me for deceiving me so exquisitely

We weren’t happy

You don’t love me anymore

Goodbye

I owe you an apology for falling in love with you

I never intended for you to suffer

If I love you I will let you go so you can be happy

Do you want to be happy?

Do you know what makes you happy?

Tell me something true, even if it hurts

I don’t want to lie, but the truth is it’s over

You’re so disarming

You’re the princess and I’m the toad

Love isn’t simple

The heart isn’t a simple diagram

The heart is a fist wrapped in blood

I’m a writer

I’m a liar

I’m a cheater

I hoped you’d never stop loving me

I saw it draining out of you

I did a stupid thing

Where was the love?

I couldn’t see it

I couldn’t touch it

I couldn’t feel it

I couldn’t hear it

Without compromise, there is no love

You’ve ruined my life

I’ll get over it

Not as fast as you do

Why isn’t love enough?

I’ll always love you

I hate that I hurt you

Look me in the eyes and tell me you’re not still in love with me

The truth isn’t that great

I’m going to try lying for a change

I’m not in love with you anymore

I just lied

If You Could Be Her

If You Could Be Her

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

She’s got Chanel on her lips

She’s got a four inch skirt on her hips

All you got is a pair of jeans

You’ve got spikes on your Vans

She’s so hot, but not as hot as you

She’s not the only thing I see ‘cause I can see you too

If you had her heels on would you do me wrong?

If you were in her shoes would you walk by my side?

She treats me like a patient with the lies she has me on

She tells me I’m the One

She tells me I’m the love of her life

If I turn the lights off would I be yours?

Would you cover me with your curves?

Would you give me what I deserve?

Would you take me for granted?

We could get lost underneath the towers of the moon

We could cross the lines

We could be each others fever

If you could be her would you keep me forever

She’s got a perfect little car

You drive a Chevy with the paint peeling off

She’s got her daddy’s credit card

You’ve worked for every dollar that you owe

You eat Ramen after you go for a run

If you had her heels on would you never do me wrong?

If you could wear her shoes would you walk by my side?

She treats me like a patient with the lies she has me on

She tells me I’m the one

She tells me I’m the love of her life

If I turn the lights off would I be yours

Would you cover me with your curves?

Could you give me what I deserve?

Could you take me for granted?

We could get lost beneath the towers of the moon

We could cross the line

We could give each other fever

If you could be her

Would you keep me forever?

If you were her, would I be your silver lining after the storm?

Can you see me crying?

If I turn the lights off would I be yours?

Could you cover me with your curves?

Could you give me what I deserve?

Would you take me for granted?

We could get lost beneath the towers of the moon

We could cross the line

We could be each others fever

If I turn the lights off would I be yours?

Would you cover me with your curves?

Would you give me what I deserve?

Could you take me for granted?

We could get lost under the towers of the moon

We should cross the line

We should be each others fever

If you would be her