You Cut Me
Deep
By
Nathan
Caleb Camerer
Are
you happy when you wake up?
I
thought I was dreaming.
It’s
been said that every word a writer writes,
Even
the commas, are a reflection of him or her
They
write to express their vision
I
have a vision
I
have a vision of you waiting for me
The
still waters of the water under a frond of stars
The
still water of your mouth under a thicket of kisses
The
still waters of the water under a frond of stars
The
still water of your mouth under a thicket of kisses
Under
a thicket of your kisses I was born into love
Why
did you lie to me?
I
want to do with you what Spring does with the Cherry Trees
I’m
a poet of love, maybe
I’m
a poet of constantly being inadequate
A
lovelorn man who is sick in my soul
This
busy human heart is weary
Worshipping
the spirit of unconscious life
Living
in a tree of wildflowers
I’m
a gentle lunatic
What
am I going to do?
What
can I do?
There’s
nothing I can do
I
can’t do anything to make you feel my love
I
want you to come here and let me love you
If
loving you is wrong, then I don’t want to be right
I
won’t be right
I’ll
never be right in your eyes
I go
over it again in my head
I
know I shouldn’t
Show
me your love
Come
to me
Show
me you want me
Funny
images flash across the sky
Images
from the past
I
saw something once, in your eyes
I
knew something about you, once
My
brain is practically exploding
Midway
along the journey of my life,
I
awake to find myself in a dark wood
I have
wandered off the straight path
Desire
is misleading
Will
you help my carry my burdens?
I’ll
never stop trying to help you with yours
I
think I’ll take a sleeping pill
I
think I’ll take two
It’s
so noisy behind my eyes that I can’t sleep
I
have to move, but I can’t
My
legs won’t work
I
imagine that when you see me you’ll realize that you’re in love with me
I
know that one thing will lead to another
We
will have a love child or two
We
will get married
You’ve
killed me
Since
you’ve left, I’ve just gone crazy with grief
I
can’t understand it
I
can’t believe it
I
want to get married once
I
want to get married for my mom
Is a
wife too much to ask for?
I
came here to look for you
I
don’t sleep at night
I’m
alone
Are
you alone?
I
enjoy it every time I get to talk to you
I
need to apologize
That
one night I was drunk
That
one night I was out of line
I
know you got the wrong idea
Do
you have a good memory?
What
are your memories of me?
Are
they good?
I’m
beginning to think my memory isn’t very reliable
How
long do you think a woman needs to know a guy,
Before
she’ll get engaged to him?
How
long do you suppose that should take?
What’s
the shortest amount of time?
I
think it should take longer than it takes to have an orgasm,
But
I suppose about a half hour is long enough
Let’s
start with a kiss
Let’s
see if we are good kissers
I
know we’ve already kissed
Would
you get engaged to me?
I
know it’s complicated
I
don’t have any money
I
don’t have an apartment
I
don’t have a house
I’ll
tell you the truth, though
Always
Do
you ever tell the truth?
Where
are you going?
Can
I give you a ride home?
Something
is wrong
How
did you get inside my mind?
How
did you get in so deep?
I
took a shower to try and wash you off me
You’ve
permeated my pores
You’re
a part of me
I
check my messages all the time
Why
am I thinking of you?
I
must be out of my mind
When
I think back on the course of our passion,
I
was a like a blind man and unafraid of the dark
I
hate to drink alone, but I am alone
Are
you alone?
I
failed you
I
failed to take advantage of the situation
I
want to know what happened
I
want to know if it was quick
Was
it like a switch you turned off?
How
did you stop loving me so quick?
I
don’t think knowing will make a difference
I
feel like I’ve been thinking about you my whole life
I’m
wrong
I’ll
always be wrong
There’s
something I need to know about you,
But
I don’t want to know it yet
Sometimes
it helps to just sit in the blackness,
Wonder
how you got into me
Where
did you get the key?
I
didn’t want to do this
I
don’t like it
I
didn’t want to do this
I
feel like I’m still drunk
Stumbling
thru my days in a fog
Tripping
on my thoughts
What
do you want?
Did
you want to let me go?
Why
did you let me go?
Have
you been looking to mess with me since day one?
Do
you know me?
I’m
not good at this
You
cut me deep
Did
you want me to go?
Did
you want me to stay?
You must
have wanted something from me
You’re
smarter than me
I’m
trying to keep up
I’m
scared of what I want
It’s
not a lot, is it?
I
guess that’s the problem with women
I
never satisfied you
I’m
sorry for that
I
didn’t do anything right
I’m
sorry you feel the way you do about me
My
problem might be that you’re exhausting
I
was doing fine before I met you
I
was doing just fine
Maybe
I’m obsessed
Maybe
I’m possessed
You’re
so beautiful
If I
keep looking at then maybe I can quit making mistakes
Are
the answers to my questions written on your expression?
How
can you be so cold?
Don’t
cry
Don’t
cry
Don’t
cry
I’m
not worth a single tear
Have
you ever been in love with me?
I
met a girl
I’ve
been thinking about her my whole life
I’ve
been dreaming about her
She
doesn’t love me though
All
women want to be loved, right?
What
about you?
Don’t
you want love?
Don’t
you want to be kissed like it will last forever?
I
think you want it so bad that it hurts
It
might be the only thing I’ll ever get right
Will
you marry me?
Will
you put down the knife you cut my heart out with?
You
cut me deep
