Thursday, January 9, 2014

I Wuv Woo and Other Verses

I Wuv Woo and Other Verses

By
Nathan Caleb Camerer



Verse I
I wuv woo
We make faces at the Moon
God watches lovingly with a telescope
Who cares who sees what tonight
Our happiness explodes from our nest
Seeping into the trees
Load the hookah with the days of our lives
Inhale the future and exhale the past
It will be this way forever,
But only if we let it
Verse II
There is a mountain high enough
You call it “My Love”
The sides are steep
Littered with the detritus of others
Some placed on pedestals higher than mine
Blocking each path I choose to the summit
My lack of rock climbing experience is hindering me
The way your ass looks in a rock climbing harness,
That keeps me pushing onwards and upwards
Wishing for wings,
But I hate Redbull unless it has Jagermeister in it
Then this rolling stone gathers moss on its memories
Either way, I’m doomed to a long fall
Watching you wave goodbye the whole way down
Verse III
Hotel or motel,
I never could tell the difference
I know it wasn’t a Holiday Inn
You, me and a couple of your friends
Only one enjoyed the detour through the desert
We still made it to our date on time
Minds blown by the blood on the stage
I love you so much until death do us part
Everyone just laughed at me for playing fetch
Photographic trickery had us walking on water,
But I’m not Jesus and your prayers are answered
They’re answered in the order they are received
If only he wouldn’t have stopped answering my calls long ago
If only I had a Golden Phone like yours
If only I was one of your answered prayers
Verse IV
True romance this isn’t
A blonde with big tits and an ass that tastes like French Vanilla ice cream,
That’s not you
You’re not ‘Bama,
But I’ve been there and you should avoid Dothan
Lincoln, NE ain’t worth shit either
It wasn’t the highways and byways of Tallahassee, FL that brought me to you,
But I’ve seen them on my travels
Circles call it “Destiny”
Squares call it “Coincidence”
I call it a “Happy Accident”
Give it a name, but it doesn’t matter what you call it
I’m here and you’re there
That’s living separate lives
The world keeps turning though
Even though I have tried to make it stop
Maybe I’ll go for another trip around this country
See what I haven’t seen yet
Maybe I’ll see you there
Verse V
I’m not the late, great Billy Shakes,
But I think you’d like me more if I was
I feel like him when we talk
Your words are like a drug
Intoxicating
Educating
Illuminating
Every conversation flows like prose
Inspiring me to try harder
Try and make you feel your own greatness
It engulfs me
Makes me feel small
I want you to smile more
I want to be part of why that happens
Help me write that story
Let’s write our own sonnet
The likes of which the world has never known

Monday, January 6, 2014

Heavy On My Mind

Heavy On My Mind

By
Nathan Caleb Camerer


I’m drunk again and it’s heavy on my mind
It’s 2 AM and I just follow the neon lights
These smoky rooms are making my eyes leak
It’s not thoughts of failing in my job
I wanted things to be different
I tried to make them happen
The job of loving you
It’s heavy on my mind
Turn it off and get on with life
Try to figure out how to explain things
How to explain to my friends
Explain to my family
Another job failed
Figure out what the hell went wrong
Why I keep failing is heavy on my mind
Loving again is heavy on my mind
Loving someone as much as I loved you
That love was a river
Wondering what is wrong with me
Following these neon signs
It’s 2 PM and I’m drunk again
Turning 50 and still hanging out is not what I want
I want a family
These situations that don’t go anywhere are heavy on my mind
It must stop
I wish you would have went there with me,
But you didn’t want to
Things got too messy
They do that sometimes
Things get fucked up
Falling for you is heavy on my mind
I have a bad case of you
It’s giving me an ulcer
It’s killing my soul
It’s heavy on my mind that all I wanted was you
I didn’t want this lonely road I’m traveling
Looking for something,
But I don’t know what it could be
I don’t hate you when I forget about me
It takes a lot of drinking to get to that point
So I take a drink to remember you
Then I take a drink to forget me
I make them strong
This broken heart is heavy on my mind
Another drink and I’ll move on
Keep following these neon signs
Looking for smoke filled rooms to hide these tears
Wanting to talk to you
Our life was my cause
It was a hopeless one
Other people’s expectations
Other people’s hopes and dreams
It’s oh-kay to disappoint people sometimes
It’s oh-kay to be disappointed
Your kisses are heavy on my mind
I wonder if you see how you hurt me
It was hard to get me to open my heart
The first time I really did it
It’ll be harder to do in the future
If you could be honest with me I might not feel so crazy
That feeling of being cut off from you is heavy on my mind
Talks about whose fault it is
I just wanted to be appreciated for what I did
Always being told what I’m not doing
The most painful way to hurt someone
Loving you is heavy on my mind
Sitting in this smoke filled room at 3 AM
Wondering what you wanted from me
I tried to do everything you wanted of me
I’ve tried to apologize
I’ve expressed my regret
Everything between us was just bullshit
There was no love
You can’t hurt me anymore
I have vouchers for my trip to Hell
I have the T-shirt too
My credibility isn’t what it used to be
This trail of broken bottles leading from bar to bar
Just follow the neon glow
Hoping we can see each other again is heavy on my mind
Wondering how I could love someone soo unbelievably much
Wondering if you felt it at least some of the time
There are still ghosts in all these rooms
No matter where I go you haunt me
It’s heavy on my mind you won’t be there to put wildflowers on my grave
The one I adore
Dreams of you while I wonder the streets looking for a neon sign
This living nightmare of trying to drink myself away
The bittersweet dream of wanting your hand in mine in the morning
It’s heavy on my mind
These shots of pain I take to fill my heart up again
I got a pounding in my brain
I can’t drink myself away

It’s heavy on my mind