Wait…
By
Nathan
Caleb Camerer
Wait…
What
are we doing?
Why
are we doing this?
Do
you know?
I
don’t
Should
we stop?
Stop
Wait…
I
don’t want to stop
I
want to act like a married couple
Stop
flirting around
What
a flaming pile of bullshit
We
can talk about this in the morning
You’re
drunk and looking for a fight
You
have that look of yours
Forget
about that look of mine
Wait…
Let’s
talk about you
We’re
not a couple
This
isn’t a honeymoon
You’re
bored
I
think that’s what it is
You
can leave anytime
Should
we talk about how long this is going to last?
I’m
still here
I’m
not going anywhere
Wait…
Are
you really suffering?
Is
this really such a disappointment?
You’re
the only life I know
Pissed
off at me for hanging on you at a party
Wait…
Tell
me the truth
You won’t
admit the truth
You
don’t really love me
Isn’t
that true?
Wait…
What
are you going to do today?
I’m
going to make up stories
Stories
of laughter
Stories
about tears
Stories
about different people
We
aren’t the same
Wait…
Anyone
who looks like you doesn’t need to do anything
Life
goes easy on you
Wait…
Sometimes
I think
Sometimes
I think too much
Sometimes
I don’t think enough
Sometimes
I think I love you more than I think I do
That’s
a lot of love
All
wasted
Wait…
I
could use more money
That
would buy your happiness
I
could work more
A
man should be able to live
Be
idle on his days off
Wait…
I’m
losing my mind
I
try writing
I
try reading
I’m
not a writer
I’m
not a reader
I’m
a pussy not a fighter
I
have brave words
Sometimes
they're true
Wait…
What
brought this on?
Do
you know?
I
don’t know.
Nothing
was started but something ended
You
were unhappy and I want you to be happy
Wait…
I
should get drunk
I am
drunk
Am I
drunk?
How
do drunks forget?
Wait…
Do
you know how much I love you?
You
say yes, but I don’t think you do
It’s
not just that
It’s
more than that
I
don’t know how much you love me
Wait…
It
occurs to me that what seemed impossible before has happened
I
have not spent my life as I should have
This
might be true
I’m
not a professional, but I have duties
This
whole arrangement of my life and my family
This
might all be false
I’ve
tried to defend it to myself and the rest of the world
I
feel weak though
There’s
nothing to defend
My
life is boring
What
if everything I defend is false?
What
do I do about that?
Find
God?
My
life has been tiny bits of light
Light
peaking thru the shadow of pain
That’s
life, isn’t it?
One
day I’ll do a major thing
One
day I’ll die
Wait…
I
have it in my head to write something big
I’ll
write something uplifting
It’ll
be about the way we are supposed to live our lives
Live
your life in a way that makes death seem like something was really lost
Wait…
I
hate you
You
were my life
You
really loved someone else more than me
Wait…
I
think you’re fantastic
I
don’t think you should be married to me
Wait…
If I
didn’t love you, I’d have to love someone else
Wait…
You
know what I wanted
I
wanted to know where we were
Now
I know
You
loved the person you were having an affair with more than you loved me
Wait…
Everybody
deserves to be happy
Wait…
You’re
beautiful
That
can’t be denied
You
do nothing all day, but fascinate me with your beauty
The
way you eat
The
way you sleep
The
way you walk about
Pure
beauty
Wait…
I
was soo happy for a minute
Then
I thought of you
I
wanted to be here with you
I
wanted “us” back
I
want to be in our bed
I
want to be in our house
I
want to be your husband
I
want that to be where I belong
Wait…
That’s
an admirable sentiment
Right
now, I love you
I
loved you for years
I’ll
love you for years
Wait…
I’m
angry
Way
down and deep inside of me
You
set this up
You
wanted this to happen
You
fuck who you want, when you want
You
didn’t want to fuck me anymore
Wait…
These
half-assed insights into the soul of this man
This
man that you never understood
My
insights suck
Thank
you, my lovely muse
Wait…
I
don’t know if I can handle this
Wait…
Careful
what you ask for,
You
might just get it
Wait…
Cheers
to hate
I’m
concentrating on that
Drinking
in the afternoon
I’ll
get rid of you that way
Drinking
a lot is only killing myself
It
doesn’t kill the spots in my mind that you hide
Wait…
Do
you hate me?
How
can you hate someone you didn’t really know?
Do
you know me?
If I
lost it all, would you still love me?
If I
get drunk everyday?
If I
go bald?
Is
your love that strong?
Do
you love me like you love a dog?
Wait…
I
want to live with you
I
didn’t have a choice
I
knew all along what was going to happen
I’m
not real slow
Wait…
I’m
drowning in shit
I’ll
be laughing soon
I
didn’t leave because you were unfaithful
I
left because I was going to be
Wait…
Just
wait…
