Where I'm Going

Where I'm Going

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

Where I'm going might be hell, but tonight it feels like heaven.

Just for tonight.

One night.

Maybe one more.

I want to go to a place where satisfaction comes in 12 second bursts.

Every 12 seconds for 54 years, give or take a few.

Or just for one night.

One night.

One more night.

Maybe one more night.

That's where I'm going.

I'm going to a place where the Sun and the Moon argue.

An argument over you.

Where do you belong?

Where I'm going, I win that argument.

I win because of your reflection in my eye.

Can you see yourself the way I do?

Just for tonight.

For one night.

For one more.

Maybe one more.

Where I'm going, the signs are written in neon lights.

The signs that lead to the corners of your mouth always turned up.

Do you have the eyes to see them?

I can write it on a napkin.

I'll write my number and what my interests are.

I'm going to a place where your home is our ceiling and mine is our floor.

Just for tonight.

One night.

One more.

Maybe one more.

I want to go to a place where I'm what you see when you look at me.

I want to see my reflection in your eye.

Look me in the eye.

See me.

I see you.

Just for tonight.

One night.

One more night.

Maybe one more.

That's where I'm going.

Just for tonight.

One night.

One more night.

Maybe one more night.

Maybe one more night.

[Silence]

[Silence]

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

Love is the only way to be happy.

If you don’t love someone or something, your life will flash by.

It’ll flash by like fireworks on the Fourth of July.

Do good.

Wonder.

Hope.

A Nun will tell you there are two ways thru life.

You can go the way of grace.

You can go the way of nature.

Choose the one you’ll follow.

The way of grace is acceptance.

Acceptance of being slighted, forgotten, disliked.

Acceptance of injuries and insults.

The graceful don’t try and please themselves.

Am I graceful?

Are you?

The way of nature is pleasing yourself.

Getting others to please you, like the Lord over us.

Have your own way.

Find reasons to be unhappy as the world shines around you.

Love is smiling on you.

A Nun will say that the graceful never come to a bad end.

Can that be true?

I will be true.

True to you forever.

True thru whatever comes.

Truth.

Can you tell me a story from before I can remember?

How about a story from before I forgot?

Tell me a story of when the world was small.

Can we help each other?

I love everyone.

I love every leaf.

I love every ray of light, even the grey ones.

Forgive.

Forgave.

I can’t do what I want to do.

Do I hate what I do?

Help me not to lie.

Help me.

I want to be loved because I am great.

I want to be a big man.

Am I nothing?

Looking at glory all around us.

Look at the trees and birds.

Do not live in shame.

The dishonor of not noticing the glory.

The dishonor of being a foolish man.

You’re all I have.

You’re all I want to have.

Fierce will is needed to get ahead in the world.

Good people get taken advantage of.

Are you listening?

Do you hear the silence?

Silence…

Believe...

Believe

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

I believe, I believe, I believe I can fly, but not really.

I believe falling feels like flying, for a little while.

I believe it's the sudden stop that kills you, us, we, me.

I believe there is an "I" in team, especially in basketball.

I believe what four guys said about love way back in the day.

I believe Hunter S. Thompson is the greatest author ever.

I believe in little kisses on the forehead just because.

I believe rocks and hard places build character.

I believe patience is a virtue.

I believe vanity is my favorite sin.

I believe football, in the east or west and spelled with two "o's" or not, is the greatest sport ever.

I believe high fives and chocolate milk are the best reward for a job well done.

I believe in a higher power.

I believe in evolution.

I believe strangers give the best advice.

I believe, I believe, I believe I can fly, but not really.

I believe you only hurt the ones you love.

I believe the ones you love are the only ones who can truly hurt you.

I believe sex is the best alarm clock.

I believe the best gifts are given when it's not a holiday.

I believe it's always 5 o'clock somewhere.

I believe music is the tie that binds.

I believe tears are a waste of water, unless they are caused by joy.

I believe in you.

I believe laughter is the best medicine.

I believe you can be happy if you want to be.

I believe in second chances.

I believe, I believe, I believe I can fly, but not really.

I believe falling feels like flying, for a little while.

I believe...