What a skeletal wreck of a man I am today
Useless
Weak and powerless
Knowing my words have failed me
I love you in a way
Even though I’ve never held your hand
I’ve never felt your heartbeat against mine
You have a look on your face that I hoped to never see
I hoped I would never cause
I have done it though
I don’t like it
I did a deep dive down the rabbit hole of you
More of a swan dive
You’re everything I ever wanted
I love you in a way
Even though I’ve never held your hand
I’ve never felt your heartbeat next to mine
You make me feel something I’ve never felt
Today it’s regret that I’m feeling
It’s not just regret from my words coming out wrong
It’s regret that I didn’t meet you sooner in life
More time to do things with you
More sunrises
More sunsets
More walks in parks where the grass is shady
I don’t know what to do about you
I love you in a way
Even though I’ve never held your hand
I’ve never felt your heartbeat next to mine
Forty eight is a big number
It’s a long road trip
I want to add to it though so we can drive coast to coast
I would be happy if I could just hold your hand
I’m happy just looking at you
But my words failed me
I’m sorry for that
I never meant to hurt your feelings
Forgiveness is what I seek today
Your smile is what I seek today
Your touch is what I seek today
I love you in a way
Even though I’ve never held your hand
I’ve never felt your heartbeat next to mine
I fear I never will
Because my words failed me
