Monday, February 13, 2012

Untitled #4

Untitled #4

By
Nathan Caleb Camerer



Many moons have passed
I still feel the sunburn on my knees
Attempts have been made
Too many to count
Trying to regain that momentum
Of a day in the sun
Pictures that I wish I had taken
Chronicle a lifelong search
Where the color of hair marks each new chapter
Heaven and hell
Wrapped in stars and scars
Both mental and physical
A magnet for random gunfire
With a bedroom naughty voice
That makes my heart skip
Every time I hear it
Or read words that it could speak
I open my chest
So you can eat my heart
A predator posing as a house pet
That sits at the top of the list
Of chances missed
Or not taken
When and where will the time come
Is it now or never
Keeping hopes in check
Trying to not let expectations crawl thru the roof
Another beautiful day
Frozen in time
Do we try and walk on thin ice
Or hope that we fall thru
Into the warm water that hides underneath
With a current that can take us away
To someplace new
The lessons of the past
Become the golden bricks

That pave the path to our future

Braindead


Braindead

By
Nathan Caleb Camerer



I don’t want to think about the future
I’m not thinking about an hour from now
I don’t want to think about a day from now
I’m not thinking about a week, month or year from now
I refuse to ponder the future
Or what the future may hold for me
I’m only concerned with the now
Here with you
The way the light makes your eyes look different
Our knees slightly touching
Leaning in close to talk in each others ear
So we can be heard over this shitty bar soundtrack
Your warm breath on my neck giving me goosebumps
Resisting the urge to kiss your neck
There is no tomorrow
Just this dim, sticky now
Happily stuck
Is this what it could always be like
Who cares
Your laugh carries over the music
I’m trying to keep the sound in my ears
Burning your smile on my memory
Prolong it as long as I can
The end is near though
Leave together or leave separate
Chance ruining the moment with a night of drunken intimacy
Or savor the intellectual purity of it
Decisions, decisions
An invitation for a nightcap
A short drive at 35 MPH
While the mind runs at 300 MPH
Aged Rum and a short tour that ends in the bedroom
An awkward second of lustful glances
Perfect passion with wants and needs being met without voices
Gentle tugs, pulls, squeezes and pushes
An alluring odor hangs in the air
As sleep takes hold
And brings with it dreams of tomorrow
That may or may not come true