There Was A Time... (Part 1)

There Was A Time… (Part 1)

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

There was a time when there was something about you

There was a sensitivity I’d never known in a person

There was a time when I dreamed of being a writer,

But I’m thinking of giving that up

It was Spring and the Cherry blossoms were jealous of you

The sun was shining

There were great bursts of leaves on the trees

A summer spent studying, sort of

Distracted by other entertaining activities

There was a time when you were The Golden Girl

You had a breathless warmth that flowed from you

It made an unspoken promise

A promise that there was no one else in the world you wanted to see

There was a time when I was paralyzed with happiness

I enjoy just looking at you

There was a time when there was a rumor floating around

A rumor of me marrying a girl from back East

It was a lie because I’m too poor

There was a time when I wasn’t cynical about everything

There was a time when the things I found precious, didn’t fade so fast

There was a time when I thought the bright things would come back,

But they do fade and they don’t come back

There was a time when I didn’t spend my nights reaching towards something

Something out in the dark that whispers on my fingertips

Looking for my Green light

Looking for my Brass ring

There was a time when writing brought me solace,

But not much to anyone else

It’s not very good,

It’s not read by very many people,

I should use it to start a fire

I write about anything

I write about whatever

I write about a memory, a thought, a place

There was a time when I was said to be good looking

There was a time when I thought you liked me,

But I’m not good enough

There was a time when you had a willingness in your heart

It burst out upon me like thunder and I could do anything because of it

Rich girls don’t marry poor boys though

There was a time when you were mine

There was a time when your smile was directed at me

That rare smile you only find a few times in life

It made me feel like you understand me

It made me feel like you believed in me

There was time when I thought I understood you

There was a time when I believed in you

There was time when every time I saw you it seemed like the first time

There was a time when all the mysteries and beauty in the world,

All the unanswered questions were nothing with you around

Nothing else mattered and anything could happen

There was a time when I was torn,

Asking myself if you loved me

5 years

There was a moment when I didn’t want to miss a single thing

You were my shimmering light

Struggling for five years

All that time lost

I saved your letters

I still have the first photo of you that you gave me

There was a time when I thought we’d never lose each other

There was a time when I never thought all that glorious love,

The glorious love between us,

Would ever turn into nothing

I just want to come home

I’m sitting here waiting and hoping,

Hoping that all my dreams of you come true

There was a time when I thought I would do everything on Earth with you

There was a time when I thought I had my whole life to be with you

There was a time when I thought it would always be like that

It could have been

We could have run away

Remember how much fun we had

We could have had fun like that forever

So far from that now

So hard to make you understand

Start over like it’s 5 years ago

It makes me sad that I can’t make you understand

There was a time when I thought you can’t repeat the past,

But of course you can

There was a time when I thought things could be fixed

Fixed just the way they were before,

But everything’s soo confused now

I talk about the past a lot,

Because there’s something I want to recover

I want to go back to the start

If I could do that then I could find the left turn we made

The turn that got me away from my vision of loving you,

That vision of me from 5 years ago

I never thought this would happen when I kissed you

There was a time when I thought I would be forever wed to you

My mind will never romp like the mind of God again

Falling in love with you changed my destiny

I let myself go

I screamed Geronimo and jumped off the cliff of sanity

There was a time when you seemed to blossom for me like a flower

There was a time…