So, This Is Love?

So, This Is Love?

By

Nathan Caleb Camerer

There’s not a second that goes by without a thought of you

I just want to see your face

Feel our hands intertwined

Feel you pressed against me

That will never be

You’ve left and you’re not coming back

I move like someone who is damned or cursed

It’s only a matter of time

Why am I writing this?

Because this is love

A million years of crazy things you would never say or do

What can come of it?

I can’t get back to you.

Why has this happened?

Because this is love

I feel like I’m bad luck or poison

I feel like I’m not doing this world any good

Then again, who knows?

There was a time back in the day

A time when you could get me so excited

Like nothing I can compare

A smile plays my lips,

When I fall inside the idea of you

I fall so hard inside the idea of you

There’s a sparkle in your stare

A sparkle that I haven’t seen in another’s eyes

There’s something about your words

They put me in the mood

They do it in a way that I haven’t experienced since back in the day

Is this love?

Is this something I can find with another?

Your touch lingers on my skin like a ghost

Cold spots in every room of this haunted house

I miss the familiar sounds of you shuffling thru the house

Time

Time is not on my side,

At least it doesn’t feel like it is

Because this is love

A million years of crazy things you never thought you would say or do

There are only so many words one can say

There are only so many ways to really speak how you feel

Sometimes the words run out

What’s left, fake or real?

Is there a better version of myself out there?

Can I change myself into something or someone else?

Give me more time

Is that what is needed?

A time in a season

So, this is love?

A chance to shine inside an eclipse

Endless wandering without a map of the world

This vacation has taken me further from my truth

New eyes wrapped in plastic instead of wire,

But wire is the way to go, apparently

Swooning and smitten is where I find myself lost

Because this is love

A million kinds of crazy

It’s 3,000 miles to Graceland and Canada is too cold

The beach and the desert are calling my name

Where is my mind?

Where is my heart?

Missing from this skeletal wreck of a man

Because this is love

A million years of crazy things you would never say or do