Surprised

Surprised

Are you surprised to hear me say I love you?

Do those words shock you?

I'm sure they don't

I think I've lost the ability to awe you

I keep trying

Nose to the grindstone and all that

The hardest job I've ever had

You surprised me

I never expected your departure

Your return was delayed

Blame the snow

It could have been the ice that kept you away

Either way I was surprised when I felt your warmth again

Snow days are great for studying anatomy

But I've lost my road map to your heart

I left it in California

Or maybe Florida

Or maybe Indiana

That's where it is

I used it to start a fire in the corn field

Surprised that you saw my smoke signals

You put out a welcome mat

Covered it with wisdom

Three licks to get to the center of your lollipop

But only in Tennessee can I hear you anymore

Sometimes in Missouri

But only if I take that one road through country that is green

Surprise me and tell me that you love me

I drove day and night to cross that one state

Just to hear you whisper in a kiss

But you shouted so loud

Words of hate and anger so heavy

I felt the weight of them when I tried to make it over that bridge

It didn't surprise me to feel them though

I've grown use to their touch on my eardrums

I'll take a bus to Florida 

Give you your space

Walk like the dead to face my truth and consequences

Get lost in the land of enchantment

Try and surprise you with acts of kindness

I'm always trying

I would be surprised if you noticed 

That's the only surprise left